Spring is finally here, with that said, we haven't yet had a day that we could wear anything remotely spring worthy. This winter has been dry, very unlike a typical Venetian winter, so we are getting it all now. Its great.
Not.
But what spring has brought besides rain is some very exciting news. News that I will soon share, and you can follow along with our journey.
No I am not pregnant.
Life has been very exciting with an almost 18 month old. We, as in I, am working on weening her. She is completely obsessed with nursing and demand every 5 minutes that I sit, and she nurse. It has gotten to the point, where I literally cannot brush my teeth in peace let alone pee. It has gotten to the point where she also wakes up like a punctual swiss watch, and wants to nurse every. stinking. hour at night. we both wake up grumpy and exhausted. Oh the also naps 30 minutes per day. Like WTF. its rough. So that is why I have eliminated the boob during the day, and she now goes to bed without being nursed. it was a week from hell, but it was SO necessary. Now she falls asleep with me rubbing her back singing lullabies... Next step is no boob at night either. wish me luck.
I cannot wait to have more energy, to sleep at night, and to be able to be more present for Luca. I have been feeling major Mamma guilt. That poor boy has been getting the short end of the stick lately... "Just a minute Luc" "in just a second" (which usually means its not going to happen) and "I'm ... with Mila, I can't right now". He needs my attention just as much as Mila does, and it kills me that I can't give that to him all the time. He doesn't seem to notice though, but it still tears at my heart. Marco helps out SO much, but his season has started so he is away a lot already, which also means, dinner come from the freezer. a lot. which I HATE. I am that mom, who has become best friends with the freezer, sandwiches, and the microwave.
With all that said, life is chaotic, but there is always this sweetness that I taste, a sweetness that becomes stronger at times, and I know it will become the sweetest. I taste it already.
Here is proof of some of that sweetness...
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| mountains, and friends |
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| trying to get dinner made |
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| always legos |
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| Anna and Mila |
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| my valentine |
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| pizza night |
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| mila and the goats |
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| eating snow, always eating snow |
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| Mila got to the point where she needs to nurse every. 5. minutes. |
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| waking up from a nap |
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| so so so so proud of him |
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| from our balcony |
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| Luca wants to works on boats and be just like Papa' when he's older |
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| our happy place |
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| school run |
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| tofu monster |
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| hop on pop |
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| gekko and owl love |
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| my sunshine |
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| my star |
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| our daily goat run |
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| little fur family |
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| I could live for that smile alone |
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| never enough snuggles from that man |
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| Nonna whispers |
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| switzerland |
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| with Gam and Paps |
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| post nap snuggles |
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| look, I'm relaxing! |
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| Pilatus |
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| cousins |
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| sweet evening moment |
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| working on her first bestseller |
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| she can find goats wherever she goes |
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| watching the horses come back from the fields |
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| the "younger" cousins. notice Mila shoving her face full of gravel? notice me in the background not giving a shiz |
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| the whole Hinderberger family. Saying our sweet goodbyes to our beloved Grossmi. Such a special day remembering her. |
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| as much as she drives me insane, I cannot give her enough love |
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| these two. oh my heart. And Luca and chocolate cake, basically the only thing he likes. |
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| this girl on the other hand, you give her a stick and she will eat it. Like the whole thing. |
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| Gam time. Never enough Gam time. |
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| Luc on a school field trip. this picture was sent to me. I love his ears. and him. |
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| he wanted to decorate his easter branch that he found. |
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| post easter hunt. |
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| it was a good easter |
